I keep torturing myself with music. Not really torture. It's more like I can feel so much bottled inside me that I want to emote. Music helps me do that. I haven't really been able to find very many songs that express what I'm feeling and describe the situation well. I think the best was "Long, Long, Time" by Linda Ronstadt. I put the lyrics up on facebook and I'm surprised no one has made any comments. That's probably a good thing because I don't want to explain (or refuse to explain) what it's all about.

I almost want to write my own lyrics to express this. How did I do this to myself??