Bored and lonely. I shouldn't be, but that's kind of how I feel. I recognize this. I feel lonely because I don't want to be alone most likely because I'm having trouble sorting out my thoughts. Being with people would be a distraction- which I'd probably enjoy but don't really need.

I kind of feel like I wish I could fast forward to Sunday. I don't see tomorrow being very exciting either. What I'm supposed to be doing is drawing near to God in times like this. But I just feel so messy right now. I don't really know how or maybe I should say, I don't really feel like I can or if I'm really honest, don't really know if I want to right now. That's bad. I'm sorry Lord.

I need...focus. And persistence. And determination maybe? I don't know. I want to be distracted right now. Or at least have someone to talk to about everything. But, on these subjects, my resources are kind of limited. *Sigh* :-/