Jackass....yeah, it's an animal

"Be angry, and do not sin..." Ephesians 4:26a

I am trying not hate you right now. Well that's not entirely true. I'm not trying that hard.

I don't even know the words to say to you right now. I'm so angry with you. I'm not supposed to let the sun go down on my anger. But how am I supposed to forgive you before I fall asleep.

You're a sick bastard. I pray I never end up like you. I want to cry, I want to yell, I want to punch a hole through something.

How could you??? She has tried so hard to be a good wife to you. Sure, she may not be that great at it. Yeah, she has problems. But to treat her like a piece of shit and then turn around and betray her like that? Are you effing kidding me??!

You think you're the only one with "needs"? She never let another man in. Never. She stayed faithful to you and wouldn't even let us talk badly about you. Always telling us, that's your dad, you've gotta respect him. Respect! Guess that's beyond you. Then for you to whine and complain and bitch and moan about what a wife should be to her husband? And about how she's not fulfilling the role of a wife and how bad of a wife she is? Really? Seriously? You're not even a husband. She's a better person than you'll ever be. And don't fucking tell me it's not my damn business. It is my business. She's my mother. This is my family. It is my business. You're a jackass and she deserves better.

Who ARE you?? I don't even feel like I know you. I don't know if I can believe anything you say. You've led a secret life. How could I trust you? Just when I thought it was getting better. I was actually starting to like you a little. Way to dash my hopes. You're pretty good at that, aren't you?

I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm disappointed. I'm confused. I'm hurt. I don't even know why I'm hurt, it's not like you did anything to me. But I am. Maybe it's because I feel like I don't know you. I didn't have the highest opinion of you anyway, but now...I just don't know what to think.

And what do I do with this? Do I tell them? Do I keep it to myself? I'm so angry at you for even putting me in this position where I have to decide.

I was gonna try and do something nice. Something cute. Thought I'd change your wallpaper to my picture. Thought you might like that. What a discovery instead.

I could drag this out for awhile, but I don't really feel like doing that. So I'll leave it here. What a disappointment....jerk.