Love Lost

"The danger in loving is the endpoint of that love."

That's a quote from an entry I made several weeks ago. I was writing about losing people you care about to tragedy. Now, as I repost, I'm asking myself if that's accurate. Is there an endpoint to love? Even when the ones you love disappoint you, walk away, or even die, do you not continue to love them? Maybe it's better to say that the danger in loving is the intensity and duration with which it is returned. If I love someone and they die, I may continue to love them, but they're no longer there to receive or return it. If I love someone who leaves me, the same is true. The difference is the hope that someday the situation will change. After a person dies, this hope dies with them. But as long as they are alive, hope remains.

Sometimes it seems more expedient to not love a person. You can then, in many ways, avoid the pain of losing love which I think may often be worse than the pain of never having loved at all.

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Maybe I should stop asking God to take away the things that keep me from depending on Him completely. He really seems to listen to those prayers. But no, that's crazy talk. If it's not from Him, I don't want it. Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt like heck though.