How long is it supposed to hurt?
How long will pictures of what could have been and thoughts of what was reveal and stir such deep deep pain?
How long will "going there" produce a fake smile that tries to hide the intensity of the cut?
How long?
How long should I wait before I decide it's okay, that all is forgiven?
How long will I continue to dole out blame?
How long will I harbor anger for broken trust?
How long will I fear becoming just like you?
How long will I question everything you ever say to me?
How many nights will I spend wishing it were easier for me to cry?

How long should I wait
before I decide that it's "okay"
that you've taken away
what was everything to me?
How long before the pain subsides
or at least starts coming in lesser tides
How long