strange week its been. i can see a different side of me. a side that i dont think even i fully know. the side that would be more dominant were it not for my relationship with God. im not sure i want to know it. but i know its there. i know my tendencies, my desires, my struggles, and the things i'm drawn to. i dont think i'd want to see myself apart from God. i think i would hate myself much much more than i sometimes already do. i can see where i might not want to live. thank God for God.