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I hate you because I cannot hate you

I hate you for all you’re not

And for all you pretend to be.

I hate that your yes means no

And your word is empty.

I hate your rage and childish bullying

I hate your lies, your hateful tongue,

Your words of pure destruction.

But mostly

I hate you because I cannot hate you.

I hate your two-faced, double standards

Your blatant hypocrisy

Your propensity to be right even when you’re wrong.

I hate your “I love you”s, your generous gifts

And all your symbols of proclaimed affection.

I hate that I believe you whether it’s true or not.

But mostly

I hate you because I cannot hate you.

I hate how much I look like you

And talk like you

And think like you.

I hate how much I can relate to you

And I hate that you can’t see it.

I hate how you think I’m someone I’m not.

But mostly

I hate you because I cannot hate you.

I hate that you’re the source of most of my tears

Yet also the reason I’m afraid to cry

I hate that you taught me pain is weakness

Yet have inflicted more than anyone I’ve personally known.

I hate you for every broken dream,

Wounded emotion,

And damaged perspective.

But mostly

I hate you because I cannot hate you.



Matthew 5:43-48